take a breath, take it deep
calm yourself, he says to me
if you play, you play for keeps
take a gun, and count to three
Im sweating now, moving slow
no time to think, my turn to go

and you can see my heart beating
you can see it through my chest
and Im terrified but Im not leaving
know that I must must pass this test
so just pull the trigger

say a prayer to yourself
he says close your eyes
sometimes it helps
and then I get a scary thought
that he's here means he's never lost
.....